When I first started thinking about this blog, I had no idea what the topic of it was going to be on. I guess I figured I’d write about something I know well. Every time there’s a paper due or a project that has to be done I struggle to complete it on the last possible day. And every time I promise myself that the next time I’m going to get an early start, but it never happens. I think for some people the stress and worry of not doing it or getting a bad grade pushes them to try really hard at school and get things done on time. The stress and pain are there for me, but it doesn’t push me. I think it actually makes me procrastinate even more. I think about how its BS that that much work was assigned, or how there’s still 3 weeks left and it’ll eventually get done.
It’s weird because physically I can push myself to work for hours on end every single day, and I do, I’m the first in and the last to leave the weight room. I break the rules so that I can continue to lift. Some people are trying to get gym exemptions, but not me, I love lifting. It’s one of the only things that relax me now. When I first got my license driving was how I relaxed but that got old when school started and most of my driving was to and from school, and it got boring especially when I had to pick up my friends and drop them off and people always begging me for rides, even though I was low on gas and they were 3 miles in the opposite direction.There's just something about working out that makes me feel great. When I lift, the only thing I worry about is to get the bar up one more time, or to get another set in or to lift ten more lbs, or how i wanna look like Ronnie.
I don’t have to worry about colleges and GPA’s and homework assignments, those all become arbitrary. I guess I kinda feel like whatever's gonna happen is gonna happen and I shouldn't worry about the future. I feel like I don't need to worry. I'd like to be a good student, but what's my motivation?